You can try to chop yourself up, force a square peg into a round hole. But it will be messy and clunky. You can clench your fists and pretend you’re a circle, if you wish, scraping your edges round and raw. For me, however, living this way was miserable and excruciatingly painful.
Have you ever had that friend who always has some sort of drama going on? There’s always some life or death problem to be solved and you cannot spend any time with them without it being hijacked by a perceived emergency?
Sometimes, desperation is a gift. And sometimes it is the most unbearable pain that saves our lives. Complete defeat is necessary for a stubborn person, like me, who refuses to start again.
Regardless whether you were in the program or not, it would be true that most humans who experience trauma need healing. The only difference between us and normies is that if we don’t heal it, we will likely use again. And if we use again, we will likely die.
When your loved one is spiritually and emotionally ill, addicted, or demoralized, your love cannot save them. When your loved one doesn’t love themselves, your love cannot save them. When they are drowning in a sea of their self-created crisis, your love cannot save them.
There is much to be learned from Ted, about the human condition, society as a whole, and the power and fragility of the human psyche. Upon thoughtfully considering the curious aspects of his story, there are many questions left behind by the man who wanted to save the world by blowing up society. These questions became even more relevant in 2020 and are questions we shouldn’t lock away with Ted.
No matter what you have been the victim of on this earth, you do not have to be the victim. You can be victorious. You can release the role of the victim, the betrayed and the abandoned. You can become the victor.
Many of us stay long after realizing our relationship is destroying us — how to leave and why every part of you wants to stay…
I wanted acceptance, purpose, freedom and love. I wanted what I wanted and I couldn’t understand the gibberish they were speaking about balance. I had real life problems to deal with and here they were talking about balance.
How could someone so full of love, light and life not have the will to live? How could those who improve the lives of so many other people not be capable of creating a life for themselves that is good enough to live?